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Journal Entry: Mon May 6, 2013, 3:13 PM
  • Mood: Affection
  • Listening to: the sounds on the street
  • Reading: the screen
  • Watching: the screen
  • Playing: nothing
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I could never stop loving you, you know.  You lived in my body for nine months, and you've lived in my heart since the day you were born.  I think of you always.  I still have the hoodies you wanted.  I didn't return them, and now I'm glad, because soon they won't be selling them anymore.  I can't send them right now because the link in our chain is broken....she's upset that you aren't talking to me.  Nevermind.  She was a wild one, and caused her share of trouble when she was your age, and the way she would talk to me! Cor rummy, you don't want to know!  So, I guess all of my children have had to go through the same growing pains.....terrible times.  But do you ever think I regret you?  Never.  You may not always like the way things are done at home, but you would always know you were loved.  I was listening to a song today and I remembered once when you heard it, and you were crying because it reminded you of friends that you missed from Alaska.  You may not have understood it....in fact, you still might not...but I kept you safe and warm until the liars stepped in.  Even so, I didn't let them get away easily.  I kept you safe, and I made sure that he would not get away with much when you had to go back.  Life has never been what it should've been for you.  If he'd kept even one promise of his, your life would've been wonderful.  But one day you'll realise that the one thing you always had but didn't always recognise was my love.  I've always loved you.  I've always taken care of you.  I tried to get you to see some good in every place we went.  You always used to talk to me because you always knew I would listen.  Even as a very tiny girl, you were a thinker, and you would ask me things.  When decisions had to be made, I always asked you first what you wanted to do.  You've been fed alot of lies over alot of years, and you've had a very hard time of it.  But I've always believed that the day would come when you would remember, and you would realise the lies that they've told you, some of which you've come to believe.  I think sometimes about the camera.  I never see your photos on here, and I wonder if the lead works.  I always wonder how you're doing.  You are always every minute in my heart.  I love you.  I've never blocked you from any of our points of conversation, so that if you ever wanted to come back, you could.  I'm taking the old man to court for all the crap he put me through, and if I can, I'll add in the crap he's put you through.  But you may be at the age where they decide that you could sue him yourself if you wanted.  I have a new flat.  It has a view of the sea, which you always loved.  I live very close to the sea now.  I hope someday you'll come home.  I hope that someday it won't be so hard.  It's a family trait, you know.  That temper.  Every single one of my siblings had it, and the teen years were horrid.  I didn't have it that bad, but all of my children did.  The teen years were so very hard with April that I had to wonder if we'd survive it.  She outgrew it.  I'm always here if you need me.  I'll always love you.  xxx

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AXNLphotography Aug 11, 2013  Professional Photographer
Thanks so much for the recent favourite of my photography :) If you could swing by my FB page and give that a like it would also be a great help! www.facebook.com/xanderphotogr… Thanks in advance!

Cool gallery by the way! :)
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thanks for the :+fav:
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Thank you for the favorite!
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Thanks for your :+fav:! :> It's much appreciated. :woohoo:
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Thank you for the fave
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