seabrownthree

I could never stop loving you, you know.  You lived in my body for nine months, and you've lived in my heart since the day you were born.  I think of you always.  I still have the hoodies you wanted.  I didn't return them, and now I'm glad, because soon they won't be selling them anymore.  I can't send them right now because the link in our chain is broken....she's upset that you aren't talking to me.  Nevermind.  She was a wild one, and caused her share of trouble when she was your age, and the way she would talk to me! Cor rummy, you don't want to know!  So, I guess all of my children have had to go through the same growing pains.....terrible times.  But do you ever think I regret you?  Never.  You may not always like the way things are done at home, but you would always know you were loved.  I was listening to a song today and I remembered once when you heard it, and you were crying because it reminded you of friends that you missed from Alaska.  You may not have understood it....in fact, you still might not...but I kept you safe and warm until the liars stepped in.  Even so, I didn't let them get away easily.  I kept you safe, and I made sure that he would not get away with much when you had to go back.  Life has never been what it should've been for you.  If he'd kept even one promise of his, your life would've been wonderful.  But one day you'll realise that the one thing you always had but didn't always recognise was my love.  I've always loved you.  I've always taken care of you.  I tried to get you to see some good in every place we went.  You always used to talk to me because you always knew I would listen.  Even as a very tiny girl, you were a thinker, and you would ask me things.  When decisions had to be made, I always asked you first what you wanted to do.  You've been fed alot of lies over alot of years, and you've had a very hard time of it.  But I've always believed that the day would come when you would remember, and you would realise the lies that they've told you, some of which you've come to believe.  I think sometimes about the camera.  I never see your photos on here, and I wonder if the lead works.  I always wonder how you're doing.  You are always every minute in my heart.  I love you.  I've never blocked you from any of our points of conversation, so that if you ever wanted to come back, you could.  I'm taking the old man to court for all the crap he put me through, and if I can, I'll add in the crap he's put you through.  But you may be at the age where they decide that you could sue him yourself if you wanted.  I have a new flat.  It has a view of the sea, which you always loved.  I live very close to the sea now.  I hope someday you'll come home.  I hope that someday it won't be so hard.  It's a family trait, you know.  That temper.  Every single one of my siblings had it, and the teen years were horrid.  I didn't have it that bad, but all of my children did.  The teen years were so very hard with April that I had to wonder if we'd survive it.  She outgrew it.  I'm always here if you need me.  I'll always love you.  xxx

I really hate it when I see what could have been a breath-taking and awe-inspiring shot ruined, reduced to a shot that is merely pretty-ish by the fact that a logo or name or website is smeared across the front of it, totally ruining the look.  I really, really hate that.  So many shots don't get favourited because of it.  Oh, well.

It's quite ironic how much losers hate to lose.  Maybe they wouldn't lose so much if they weren't such losers.  I mean, the more they try to hold onto things, the worse they make it for themselves.  Growing up may be hard to do, but you'd think that most people would be able to achieve it by the time they reach 60, wouldn't you?  Holding onto grudges, wanting revenge for everything....all those things are about being a loser.  You just have to take it on the chin and keep going, that's what turns a loser into a winner.  Just give it up and move on.  If you don't, you end up losing more.

I just got my prints that I ordered today.  THEY SUCK!!!  The small prints are ok, but the larger sizes that they said they could make, and which I know my file will make, were HORRIBLE!!!  There's even some purple glare in the corner of the print that DOES NOT EXIST in the file!!!  The colours are washed out, and the paper is not the very best, I can tell you that.  I wonder how many others knew it was this bad???

Check out my etsy shop www.etsy.com/shop/seabrownthre… for prints on showcase on 13th and 14th of March.  Also, you can check out my website at www.seabrownthree.co.uk for new prints and new sizes added.  I hope you like it!  Please like my facebook page at www.facebook.com/jewelleryandprints.  Thanks!